Chapters I​-​IX

by Borderline Angelic

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credits

released February 26, 2010

album written and recorded between
16 December 2009 and 14 February 2010.
except track 9 originally recorded 2004.

dedicated to ENA

produced by Borderline Angelic
for Blue Shutters/Broken Windows Music

www.borderlineangelic.com

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Track Name: Intro (Hamlet Tells Gildenstern of His Anxieties)
Hamlet, Act II Scene II, Lines 305-320
William Shakespeare
Track Name: Motion Like Dance
Somewhere before it began
A spark flared to life out of nothing
Each event the result of the last
Each event was the cause of what followed
And a trial was put into place
Without any purpose per say
God was laughing so hard, she completely forgot
What she'd started
Ha, ha, ha.

And here I stand today
Homosapien 101
After years of construction
I'm refined and adapted
I'm still making mistakes
Like I'm a broken equation
And after the procedure evolves
We'll have more and more problems to solve
'Cause a world without fault
Leads us nowhere at all
When perfection is what we're all after

We don't know what we are
We're so desperate to know
That we're making up rules as go
We haven't been that far
As for the "human race"
We're all standing in place
And we're speaking tongues
And developed some ticks
And I'm starting to glitch
Yes, I'm starting to glitch

So I open my eyes and I pick up my feet
And each motion, like dance, will define who I'll be
As I move to the beat
And the natural rhythm of laughter
I measure success by the dreams that I have
And the wilder they are the better I get
At being my piece of this great instrument
Around us
I'll start it off, but you know the tune I sing
With a one, and a two, and three

We measure our lives
By the changes we've made
Even when they are pointless or stupid
'Cause we're grasping at straws
We're a system of manics
And we're filling out books
Defining creatures of habit
Sometime before all of this ends
And the sun swallows us up again
We might finally define
What is real in our lives
It's the heartbeat we finally inherit

We don't know what we are
If we just take a step
We'll react with one more after that
We haven't been that far
'Cause the answer is there
But we're so unaware
Let's open our eyes
And be blind in the light
'Cause not knowing is simply the proof
That we're alive

So I open my eyes and I pick up my feet
And each motion, like dance, will define who I'll be
As I move to the beat
And the natural rhythm of laughter
I measure success by the dreams that I have
And the wilder they are the better I get
At being my piece of this great instrument
Around us
I'll start it off, but you know the tune I sing
With a one, and a two, and three

I'll start if off, but you know the tune I sing
Track Name: You, Wild For.
It's you and me against these sheets
Your eyes the only words you need
Show me the secrets on those lips
But please speak the kiss you mean
You know you drive me crazy
It's a fact you can't ignore
But you're the only one that I'm wild for

A planned attack
I've traced your steps
Uncovered truths of what you are
I'd rather die than let you go
So when you shoot, aim for my heart

How many lies did you tell in our time?
To protect yourself; just to save your skin
And I'm not fine, I'm mad as hell
I can't believe I fell for this
You've never been so selfish
What have you done with her?
The girl that once believed in me
For better or for worse

It must have been so easy
I bet you didn't even wince
The whole time getting ready
For the next man on your list
And yes, you meant the world to me
How can you even question it?
And no, I won't forget you
How did it even come to this?

It's you and me against these sheets
Your eyes the only words you need
Show me the secrets on those lips
But please speak the kiss you mean
You know you drive me crazy
It's a fact you can't ignore
But you're the only one that I'm wild for

A planned attack
I've traced your steps
Uncovered truths of what you are
I'd rather die than let you go
So when you shoot, aim for my heart

I went from being the one that you needed
To being thrown away
And somehow still, against my will
I miss you everyday
You shut off all the power
Shut your mouth and ran away
With no further explanation
For leaving me this way

It must have been so easy
I bet you didn't even blink
The whole preaching clarity
But did you even pause to think?
And yes, you meant the world to me
How can you even question it?
And no, I won't forgive you
How did it even come to this?

It's you and me against these sheets
Your eyes the only words you need
Show me the secrets on those lips
But please speak...
You know you drive me crazy
It's a fact you can't ignore
But you're the only one that I'm wild for
Track Name: Fate
So wipe off all the dust that has found its way
To your hopes and your dreams for so long
You've ignored them both long enough
No excuse - quid pro quo
You won't get anywhere until you finally get up go
There's the door, make some use of it now

Buy a watch, give it time to keep track of the ways
That you waste your life everyday
Feeling cold? Here's some comfort fresh off the fire
Fall in love, procreate
Buy this house, buy this car,
Buy your age, buy your weight
Then one day, you will die
You never saw that coming, did you? Did you?

You can spend all your time without purpose
And ignore all the things that you've noticed
After all, potential is just an ugly word
For a failure that has yet occurred
Or you could dig your heels into the soil
Halt the line, cause a break
Say you're not having this anymore
You can force feed all you'd like
But I would rather starve

So forget about fate
You'll only ever have what you work to create
That's a fact - there's no plan
That you don't have some say in
Now you'll see what is real
And not some subterfuge or facade
That was built to conceal
Clear your mind, make you warm
Make you tired, make you blank
Make you fine - I'm just fine

You can spend all your time without purpose
And ignore the whole time that you're worth it
After all, what could one individual be
In a world that's so dull, so inane, and so empty?
Dig your heels into the soil
Halt the line, cause a break
Say you're not having this anymore
You can force feed all you'd like
But I would rather starve

So forget about fate
You'll only ever have what you work to create
That's a fact - don't let go
Of all your foolish dreams; they're all you'll ever have
So wipe off all the dust
What are you waiting for?
Track Name: Today We've Changed
I recall feeling tall on the top of a mountain
Perhaps where I was built
With one girl, and one boy, and a bottle of gin
A sin designed for human guilt
And I don't remember very much since then
Except for this feeling of detachment
So what is a dream to a simple machine
But remainders of the end?

Today I think we've changed
Let our world be born again
And letting go of the past that you hold
Is the best place to begin
Today I think we've changed
Though our paths remain the same
And the hardest part isn't forgetting
It's letting the pain in

I felt very small when the sky hit the earth
And the lights came crashing down
And each pinhole abyss is a home that we missed
Somewhere along this road
And I don't think much of all this noise we make
Our lifelessness put on parade
We're concepts trapped in chemicals and skin

Today I think we've changed
Though we might still be afraid
We're letting go of the past that we hold
So the future will remain
Today I think we've changed
Though our lives remain clichéd
And the hardest part isn't making mistakes
It's holding them all in
Track Name: Consider Yourself Golden
I'm sick of being pretentious
I'm sick of seeming childish
Just because I play with forces
So much greater than the basics
And I'm tired of being discounted
As a dreamer without purpose
And I know the only reason
Is not everyone everyone can see it

I don't live inside my fiction
I do my best to make it happen
Between my hope and hopelessness
I'd pick fiction any day

And every actor comes and goes
And every time it's more dramatic
Because I demand perfection
But that's not the human way

And I'm somewhere escape to
I drip with optimism
I live my life so cinematic
I live it like I'm always dying
And the real world, this dull parade
This stage where we're all made and placed
Stick to the part you're going to play
It's not worth it

And I can be forgotten
Bookmarked and laid to rest
Put under endless piles of papers
Endless deadlines, endless questions
A world once read now fades
My character fades with it
Until I am just a vapor
And the circle starts again

So consider yourself golden
And you'll shine brighter than the rest
But I hope you like seclusion
And its share of loneliness

But one day they might notice
Take your hand, and finally say,
'I always knew you'd make a difference,
With this gift you always gave'.
Track Name: Lost Earrings
The universe is far too small
To ignore the things that could make you whole
And the world is filled with too much grief
To ignore someone else's needs

And I'm lost to where I'm going
As well as where I've been
And I must find a beginning now that
This has reached an end
And people lose their love somehow
But I keep mine deep inside me now
Where it always screams, but it never makes a sound

And I never signed a contract
Exclusive to your heart
But that doesn't mean
I can't tell when it's falling apart
And that place to rest my head
That place inside your bed
Has become nothing more than
Something dark and misread

And as a fire burns, we'll close an open door
And I'll take back everything
I must have left here long before
And another chapter ends
And leaves you wanting more
So I'll keep alive our dreams
With these lost earrings

And the human heart seems far too real
To ignore the way that someone makes you feel
And I won't forget all the things I've lost
With love there is no truer cause

We're animals with our chemicals
With our nine-to-five and our weekend buzz
With our bullshit lies and our vicious tongues
That lash out uncontrolled
Why don't we teach each other something?
Our fear - it gives us next to nothing
Inventing simple labels to explain the way we feel

And I never signed a contract
Exclusive to your heart
But that doesn't mean
I can't tell when it's falling apart
And that place to rest my head
That place inside your bed
Has become nothing more than
Something dark and misread

And as the sunset goes, we'll go along this road
And I'll make up honest lies
On how we couldn't stay afloat
And another year will end
And leave me regretful
So I'll keep alive our dreams
With these lost earrings
Track Name: Conjoined At The Tongue
In middle of two things I'll never see
The time before my birth
And the first second after death
It's the price I pay for humanity
The soul ignores like the two have never met

But everything's just inbetween
A battle forged for infancy and age
Hold onto hope like helium balloons
And conjoin at the tongue
To speak the secrets that we're all afraid

The only way to move
And get the hell out of this place
Is to get going
And the only thing that's worse
Than staying static, staying boring
Is not knowing
And my opportunity is what ignites the fire in me
Puts the meaning in each breath
And the shoes upon my feet
The future is a world that's always growing
The road is out there waiting
For the one who goes and sees

You're the sum of all your possibility
There's nothing to escape except this apathy you feel
You've got to center yourself,
Got to figure out of your life
'Cause you'll live inside a lie
If every little thing seems right

If all you want comforting
You might all well give up and throw the fight
'Cause the world's not made
For those without a mark
So please, try and keep up
And we'll sing a melody you've never heard of

The only way to move
And get the hell out of this place
Is to get going
And the only thing that's worse
Than staying static, staying boring
Is not knowing
And my opportunity is what ignites the fire in me
Puts the meaning in each breath
And the shoes upon my feet
The future is a world that's always growing
And the road is out there waiting
For the one who goes and sees

I'm the outcome of two things I'll never see
We'll conjoin at the tongue
To speak in languages they've never heard of

It's the price I pay for my humanity
We'll conjoin at the tongue
To speak in languages they've never heard of

Everything's just in between us
Track Name: Sweep You Off Your Feet
I used to think that I could make you happy
I used to think the love we shared
Was deep inside you now
But now I see I must seem very boring
And easily replaceable somehow

A distant yawn, a silent end
The dial tone holds us forgiven
My tears echo a silent prayer
That love remains intact, but clearly under attack
From both sides and from within

I used to dream that I could sweep you off your feet
So gracefully and free, into a fantasy
But now I know that it takes more than love or chivalry
To be the one that's in your dreams
'Cause you don't seem to know

Well, obviously...
I wonder how you felt my words held no conviction
How my trust put up with your dishonesty
Betrayal plays a tricky game
Where both sides always lose the same
Excuses from this distance
Excuses for compassion

I've fought off all my demons
So how about yours now?
You've given me good reasons
To ask these questions fairly
A single breath is all you get
I'll never bend to you again
It's you that brought this heartbreak
It's you that brought me here to my knees

I used to dream that I could sweep you off your feet
So gracefully and free, into a fantasy
But now I know that it takes more than love or chivalry
To be the one that's in your dreams
'Cause no one's that empty
No, no one's that empty
No one will ever be that empty
Track Name: Chanson De La Semaine
Make a beat to move some feet
Or change a mind, or a change of heart
I play these chords to play my hand
Each defense a work of art
And I have trouble speaking
It always comes out wrong
And this week is no different
Just like my newest song

And I've never been a painter
Or an artist with my words
An architect of syllables just repeating what I've heard
These notes I make are not unique
These melodies seem trite and cheap
And I can't keep my mind at ease for anything
Minstrel or mistaken; I'll guess I'll wait and see

My train of thought derailed killing hundreds
My weaknesses erupt and are exploited
My heart is on display
In a custom fitted case
And all I ask of you is to not touch it

I'm broke and unsuccessful
I'm boring and obsessive
I'm hurt but never hurting
What is wrong with me?
These notes I make are not unique
These melodies seem trite and cheap
And I can't keep my mind at ease for the life of me
A minstrel or mistaken; I'll guess I'll wait and see
Track Name: Await Rescue
We're driving down the highway
It's nothing but an empty expanse
Got two disposable cameras
To preserve what we can, make it last
I'm running away from the problems I've made
And the pain I've left back in the past
Just crumple up those days and then never look back

And I know that these foothills we've crossed
Seem like mountains in snow
And I hope that you can pull yourself away
From all this pain
And come back home

I don't think I can express the things you do to me
But I'm willing to lay out this past that we have
And try and make sense of something
But every step taken down our path
Is a step that you take in retreat
I hope the day will arrive, when everything is aligned
And you'll come back to me

Now we're not really talking
The invite to call seems expired
I'm sorry I'm not proud of all that you've done
It reduces our love to denial
But love is without point or purpose
The chaos alone makes it worth it
I would have never traded you in for anything

And I know that each foothill we've crossed
Seem like mountains in snow
Don't let go - the path might seem wrong
When there's so far to go
And I know that the distance is long
And that time moves too slow
But I hoped that we might make it past the same
Old frightened chains
And make it home

I don't think I can express the things you do to me
But I'm willing to lay out this past that we have
And try and make sense of something
But every step taken down this path
Is a step that you've made in retreat
I hope the day will arrive, when everything is aligned
And you'll come back to me
Track Name: Value The Sound It Makes
It's six-o-clock A.M.
The day I feared is finally here
I smoke my last cigarette
And my hope almost dies with it

She's smiling, but she's silent
I have seen that look before
If you walk out on me now
You'll lose all that we fought for

My insides doing turns
Pirouettes inside my chest
I hold her hand but every second
I am losing grip instead

I always thought I'd have the chance
To shake these fears and make it last
But I'm not giving up
It's her that's come undone

And there's no chance of fighting
With a thousand miles between us
I will not count the loss, shed my tears, or move along
I scream so loud that my lungs ache
But I value the sound that they make

This time I felt so certain
A feeling somehow long forgotten
One feeling left to cherish
For the woman that I loved

It couldn't be that hard, could it?
But believe me, I was wrong
The loving part is easy
It's the losing love that's not

And there's no chance this time
At reviving what once was
I won't win this uphill battle
For the love that she's forgot
My heart begins to moan under the weight
But I value the sound that it makes
Track Name: If It's Not Too Late By Morning
Firecrackers, shimmering
Flare up in drops around me
Followed by some scattered shouts
Of startled exclamation
Sparkling dreams produce the scene
Of a perfect movie ending
Raining down around me
In a million whispered wishes -
"I love you", "I need you"
"I need you more than ever"
"I miss you, I think I would even if I'd never met you"

These claims are all short lived
'Cause each moment flips a switch
A million choices firing off
Not knowing which is which
Wouldn't it be grand
To tell the truth and stick with it?
Without these boring, substituting
Words to lose touch with?

The older that we get
The more we have to risk
And the words we shared that meant so much
We eventually forget
If it's not too late by morning
Let's revisit what we've missed

Piece together images
Of time we take for granted
What changes do you make
When you can't finish what you've started?
Cars lie dead with drunken feet
Our minds become our prisons
You swear these new year resolutions
Keep your head from spinning?

The older that we get
The more we have to risk
And the words we shared that meant so much
We eventually forget
Tonight I'll try and sleep
But my fear keeps me awake
My mind keeps winning races
As each puzzle piece is placed
If it's not too late by morning
Let's retrace the steps we've made